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Main Boards => Prayers/Concerns/Honors/Ailments => Topic started by: stringstretcher on June 11, 2013, 02:30:00 PM
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I want to post this here so that every one will have a better chance of seeing it. There comes a time is everyone life, that they struggle, have issues, as well as medical problems. For some of us (me) it seems to be all of these things taking a huge toll on my life. I have a lot of decisions to make in the very near future that could either help me or at least try to get some quality back in my life.
You all know of most of the things that I have been through in the last two years especially. It appears that all the drama, the loss of muscle tone, the loss of a desire to be around people, and to do things has caught up with me in a way that I can not conquer it on my own, so I am seeking some help. With that said, I have sought some professional help to guide me and set me in the right direction to gain control of my life and life style back.
I had another round of the medicine this morning, the one that is not doing anything, and the doctors and I had yet another long talk, along with a new doctor that was thrown into the mix. From all that has taken place in my life, for the last several years, it has caught up with me, and putting me flat on my ass. I have no life as of right now, and they know that. On their suggestions and my asking, I am going to be gone for a while starting next week as an in/out patient for some things that need to change for me. The biggest one, is getting off of all perscribed medicines, and going on an all natural supplement regiment. I have tried it on my own, but now have huge chemical imbalance in my body that is not good. I will be attending an all natural supplement therapy group as well as some counseling to get my body and mind in sink again.
I have to learn to cope with the aggressiveness of this now active sarcoidosis, as well as get the full healing that I never got from the operation on my inner ear. This will all take time and study. I know that I will be on a very very strict monitored regiment, and have to have evaluations daily for a while. The only good thing is I will be home at nights, as of right now.
I will be signing off of all the sites I visit, and will not return until I and the doctors feel it is right to do so. And that could be a long time as we see it now.
If there is anyone that I have made promisses to and have not done, I am truly sorry, but they will get done and handled when I can. I will be on here through Sunday, and then my time has to become something different to get back to being who I was. Most of you have know me for a while, and trust me when I say that I am just a shell of the man I used to be. I have to find Charlie and put him back in his shell, if at all possible.
Please keep me in your prayers and I am sure I will think of you all daily, but I will have to leave it at that for now.
Thanks and God Bless
Charlie
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Charlie I'm putting prayer for you in my calendar with a reminder every day. Praying for God's best for you.
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All things are possible through Christ. You will get back to where you want to be. It only takes time.
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Been a long time coming, Charlie, but I know some of your struggles and think this is the only smart alternative for you, under the circumstances.
While contact will be slim, you will remain in my prayers and prayers of many! Good luck! Godspeed!
Keep the Son in your eyes!
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Prayers up that the changes provide you with only positive effects long term. Hopefully one day soon you'll be able to accomplish those things you desire to do.
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Our hope and prayer is that you will find what you are seeking and that the Lord will take control over your life and there will be peace and contentment. God Bless you Charlie.
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I'm not a religious man. But I am a firm believer in the power of the human spirit.
It sounds like you have reached the crossroads where it's time to take the steps needed to heal and become one again.
Good luck in your quest. None of us can walk in your shoes but we can be a sounding block for reality checks when needed.
Don't be afraid to reach out when needed.
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Charlie, Best of luck in your healing. I will have continued prayers for you and loved ones.
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Charlie, you are in our prayers.
Shick
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My prayers go out to you.
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Thanks everyone
Going to spend some time this evening with my daughter, son-in-law and grandsons, and then start a journey towards a new life in the morning. I thank all of you for your comments and prayers. Hopefully with a little time, and lots of hard work, things will get back to normal, or as close as they can be for me. I will pop on every now and then, and let you know how things are. Until then, I will say fare well for a while.
Thanks and God Bless
Charlie
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Till we hear form you again may God richly bless you
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Charlie, I pray God's supernatural Healing and Wisdom for you. I pray God bless your caretakers. Looking foreward to a good next report. Denny
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Waiting and hopeful to see you renewed, Charlie.
Killdeer :campfire:
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Amen
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Hello everyone. Yes I am still kicking, just not high at all. I came here first to pass on what I can tell you about what is going on in my life as of right now.
Through the last several weeks, I have been seeing several doctors, in just about every field there is and finally got some results from I don't know how many test that has been run. But, I was sat down with my now new primary care doctor this morning to tell me the news and what is going to take place from here on out, at least for a while.
Years ago, back in the 80's if believe it was, I was that I had manic-depression. I was put on some serious beta blocker medicine and at that time it worked and did me good. I felt great, and became mostly human again after that. Fast forward to 3 years ago.
When I started having all this balance issue and testing and this and that, and no idea what all medications I have tried or taken all these times, some have helped and some no so much. Any way, after the operation on my ear last year, things got really bad in the depression department for me. No knowing what was going on, we all though depressed because of what I was going through. Loosing my job, going on disability, having cars repoed, and on an on. Well now, that was not actually all that was happening.
I was told this morning that I in fact have manic-depression. That is what it was called years ago before all this new and scientific studies were and have been done. Do you know what it really is?? It is BI-POLAR. Yes,,,,,BI-POLAR. Or that is what I am being told.
If it is, it would explain a lot of things over the last few years. Loss of concentration in things that I love to do??? Yeap gone. Making hasty decisions on purchasing things to do something new....OH YEAH....DEFINATELY. Wanting to help everyone any way I can and getting excited,,,MANY MANY MANY TIMES, only to loose interest and not do it?Huh? Sound familiar? yeah a lot of things that I promised that never got done. And so many other feelings that I just will not go into.
So in the next two weeks, I start a new medication today that has more side effects that can be put in Websters Dictionary. I have to monitor every thing I do and eat for those two weeks, how long I sleep, how I feel and on and on, and go back to see my new doctor August 16Th.
If this is so, I have a new lease on life, although a challenging one, but one that can be controlled so I am told. I just need, with their help to find the old me and give him back to me.
For anyone that over the last 3 years that I have made promises to, made deals with and not completed, I am truly sorry. But I can honestly say, It was not Charlie Jefferson making those promises and deals at that time, it was some one I never want to know or meet again. An I will try over time to remember them and make good on them if at all possible.
So for me now, it is a hurry up and wait deal to see what happens, a lot of trial and error I am sure, but with God's grace, I will come through this and enjoy a better life.
I hope you all understand..
Thanks and God Bless
Charlie Jefferson.
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Great to hear from you Charlie. Still praying every day for you to be free of this crap. By the way I'll pray that real Charlie J come out of this as the b-p probably never let the real you out.
2 Samuel 7:28 gwt
"Almighty Lord, you are God and your words are trustworthy. You promised me this good thing."
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Sounds like you have insights to many, many things from the past, there Charlie.
Not an easy diagnosis to cope with...nor a condition to take lightly.
Prayers for the best and His will to be done in the restoration with others of which you spoke.
Keep the Son in your eyes!
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Prayers for you and yours Charlie. Hope all goes well and you return to your old self. Good luck and God Bless. :pray:
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Thinking kindly of you, Charlie, and hoping that you are finding yourself and are happy. Peace upon your heart. It is a good one.
Killdeer
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Thanks again everyone. I just thought I would give an update of all that is going on.
I had my one year visit with my Dr. about the labrinthectomy surgery a week ago Monday. The surgery was a success as to fixing a lot of the problems being caused by the bad vestibular function, but the areas that I wanted back the most are as he puts it long gone. Sort of like, get over it and move on. What you got is what you got.
I was diagnosed as being bi-polar two weeks ago. I am now on medication for that, but still have some really really bad days just being able to function the way the "old Charlie" did, and that I hate. Even though he was never all that, I sure as hell do miss him. I want him back, but he may be long gone as well.
I had blood work done three weeks ago, and quote un quote for the Dr.."you are a mess, and could be in some serious trouble if we don't get this worked on. Diet, exercise, food, drink, and just about every thing I ever put in my mouth, was taken away. My triglycerides were through the roof. My vitamin D was almost now existent (don't know why) and I have to take 5000 units a day. My bad cholesterol was great, but my good is extremely low. And about half of the other values he checked were way off the chart. Per him, a number one prime suspect for a stroke or heart attack, and he means now.
About 7 weeks ago, I hurt my right shoulder trying to start a frigging weed eater, and felt a sharp pain go from my shoulder down to my elbow. Today, it is all I can do to move my are in any way. My primary Dr. told me Monday a week ago to get to an orthopaedic surgeon as soon as I possibly could, and don't lift any thing with that are. Hell I can not move it let along lift with it. I have an appointment Monday morning coming at 8 AM.
I know there are many many others that are a lot worst off than I, but when will it stop. I would love to know. So much has been taken away in the last four years, I could write a book. I am just so tired of the drama, the wanting to do things, and here I sit.
I would love to find a deserted cabin in the mountains with a wood stove, and water near by and go there an stay, for a long long long time.
I also know that thing can get a lot worst. I just pray every day that they do not and can once again become a whole person. Right now, honestly, I have no idea who the hell I am any more.
Thanks and God Bless
Charlie
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Prayers sent Charlie. Nothing I can say will be enough so I'll just keep praying
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Charlie,
Your last note of Aug 1 seemed a lot more positive.
Sorry for your continued struggles but the depression won't go away in a day...didn't come in one and won't leave in one.
Hold onto what is precious, build as many positive moments as you can and KNOW that God is in control!
This is your chance to build a whole NEW Charlie that you can love even more!
Keep the Son in your eyes!
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Charlie I've struggled with bipolar and hated the middle ground that the drug kept me. I wanted what I thought was the old me which I wanted to be the man on the high end of the swing. The one everyone wished they had the energy to be but it was only pride. Pride based on what I could do and not on whose I was. Finally I realized God told me to accept myself for who I was and to praise and laugh to spite the problems. I have better more stable high now that doesn't USE my friends and family. So bury the old Charlie and find the real and precious Charlie that God created you to be.
Here's part of my nights devotions.
The True Master
Winter is essential for growth. Stripped down to the bare minimum, our economic, emotional or spiritual winter makes clear to us the essentials from the superfluous. No vanity and prideful attitude, we will call out “Abba, Father, I need you.” Thus, we begin a new season with new blessings.
“Lord, thank you that You are using this bleak season in my life to bring me to a new level. I thank you for this humbling experience. I submit myself to Your plan. Please let this lean time be my time to focus on You, my Lord and my God. In Jesus’ name. Amen.”
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Just got back from the results of my MRI on my shoulder. Torn Rotator Cuff. Yep. Only way to repair it will be surgery. But since I already have surgery scheduled for my Baha Hearing Implant, the should surgery will have to be put off until I recover from that surgery and rehab.
So for now, cortisone injections into the shoulder, and rehab twice a week for four weeks. They also found abnormal size and amounts of lymph nodes under my arm pit. Suggested to see my primary care IMMEDIATELY.
So here is my life for the next 12 to 18 months.
Have rehab two times a week for four weeks.
Work on the bi-polar and blood counts.
Have Dr. visit for the lymph nodes????
Have Dr. visit on Oct 1 for the bi-polar and blood.
Have Dr. visit on Oct 9 for hearing aid fitting
Have Surgery on Oct 29th to implant the hearing aid.
8-12 weeks recovery and fitting to program the hearing aid.
Surgery after the above surgery for the rotator cuff..
6 months to a year recovery on that.
What does all this mean? No hunting this year, no classic next year, and no hunting next year as well. As well as no building bows, arrows, shooting bows..and on and on.
Such a wonderful day
Have Dr. visit
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Had the old fashioned rotator repair some years back...full cut, not arthroscopic. That was Aug 27th and I was drawing and shooting my hunting bow by Oct.
Never say quit, Charlie. Not like you...
One day at a time... and one foot in front of the other!
Keep the Son in your eyes!
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God bless you Charlie! I will keep you in my prayers brother. God will see you through this tempest... Put your complete trust in him. I read Mathew 6 this morning and as always, it was very comforting and inspirational. This chapter in Mathew instructs us to not worry about the things that we cannot control... God takes care of us if we let him.
God bless,
Kenny
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It has been a tough couple weeks here. One doctor after another, blood work, ct scans, and now comes the time to find out what else is happening in my body.
Tomorrow I go for a pre-surgery interview to get all the info on what they will be doing on Tuesday the 10th. They found adnormal lymph nodes on both sides under my arm pits and across my chest. Only way to find out what is wrong is to do a biopsy which I have to be at the hospital at 7:15 AM Tuesday morning. They mentioned it could be about a 4 hour procedure. Just not sure yet and will not know until tomorrow just what they will be doing.
After the biopsy, I have to go back to see the oncologist September 16th to get all results to see what it is they found, and what my treatment options might be.
I sure could use more prayers folks, as to me, this is the hardest thing I have had to deal with yet.
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Prayers continue Charlie.
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Yup. Prayers continue!
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Continued prayers for your recovery.
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I have had you on my prayer list since I saw your first request. The prayers will continue.
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I just got back from the biopsy and all went well. I just wanted to again thank each and every one of my Traditional archery friends. It has always been my pure pleasure to be in a group of such fine people. Now it is just the wait.
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Weight (wait) broke the wagon down, but PATIENCE built it up again!
... glad there were no complications to the biopsy
Fret not and keep focused
Keep the Son in your eyes
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Prayers continue daily
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Once again I want to thank each and everyone for your prayers and thoughts. I got my results back yesterday from my biopsy, and NO CANCER. They are sure it is my sarcodosis that is showing up and active, but not to a point of concern just yet. I will now wait six months and have another CT to see if the lymph nodes are changing and go from there.
I just want to say THANK YOU ALL, for you support, thoughts and prayers. You don't know how much it means to me.
This will be the last time posting on this subject for a long time. Now to move on to better things, archery related.
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Praise God & Gods continued best!
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Charlie,
In this case your silence will be "no news is good news".
Thank the Lord for the NO CANCER report! That report, while a God-send, doesn't not lessen your other challenges, for sure. Keep focused, small steady steps on the path to inner peace and future fulfillment, Charlie!
Patience grasshopper, it will come!
Keep the Son in your eyes!
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Best of Luck Charlie,
My prayers continue!
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