Family member suicide

[BillW]

Today as I was arriving to work, my mother called and told me that her brother Jerry Bauer (65 yrs old) shot himself. I was numb, as a kid we were all very close. His children from his first marriage grew up with me. When I was about ten years old he and his wife got a divorce (she was unfaithful). It changed our family and after that we saw less of my uncle and his kids. My uncle soon remarried (rebound) and started another family. I never knew these cousins but I heard things. They were wild kids and wild teenagers. I am hearing now the hell my uncle had living at home. Apparently these hooligan kids even beat him up a few times.

My uncle was a caring, kind man who was very hard working. He did nothing but work hard to support that unappreciative bunch.

Funny thing is I have always felt “our” family is my cousins from his first marriage and not these other kids, I just never knew them. I know the children from his first marriage are heart broken and they are all fine people (I am proud how they grew up coming from a divided family).  Our whole family, my mother, her siblings and all the nieces and nephews are all hurting bad now.

The sadness in me is finally coming out but I am at work so I must hold it in. I have talked to my mother and my dad. My mom is so sad and crying, that is hard for me to hear. It is breaking my heart right now to also know that they are preparing to tell my sweet 93 year old grandmother who lives next door that her son is dead. I am so worried what this will do to her.

I have not prayed yet, I will after I type this. I don’t know how to feel (besides sad), should I be mad at my uncle or pity his life. Of course I will forgive him because I loved him, I know he would never hurt us if he realized. I am guessing something happened to push him over the edge. I am not excusing what he did but I certainly cannot condemn him. The last time I saw him we hugged and said “Love you man.” That was about 3 years ago.

Please pray that god forgive my uncle and pray my family has the strength to endure this tragedy.

Regards,
Bill Wright

[Aaron Proffitt]

Oh, Bill. So sorry for the loss of your Uncle Jerry. Prayers sent from OK.

[Doc Nock]

So many questions that only God, and in His time, can/will be answered--regarding your uncle's situation and how you should feel.

give it to God. As one of our brothers wrote to me a few weeks back and I pass on:

Quote: Matt 6:32-34


34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

And my friend's follow up advice to that scripture:

Allow yourself to be weak, God’s power is perfected in our weakness.  Our circumstances’ are but a finite moment in time.  He has already taken care of the situation… give His ultimate purpose time to unfold.  He that waits upon the Lord…..

I pray for peace on your Uncle's soul and pray for strength for your family, your mom and Grandmom.

[Benha]

I am so sorry for your loss. That's all I know to say.

[BillW]

Thanks guys! The wake is today and the funeral tomorrow. It has been hard waiting for closure on this. I guess with the holiday and all it has just taken longer. Next two days will be very sad.
Bill

[Firstarrow]

Sorry Bill for your loss. Prayers for you and yours.

[TexMex]

Sorry to hear this Bill,
You say you have not prayed yet but the truth is you just did.


God Bless
May he give you and your family strength.

[4runr]

God bless you Brother. We are all here for you and with you.

[Bob T.]

Bill,sorry for your family's loss. Prayers are sent for you & your family.
BobT.

[AnointedArcher]

God bless and keep you and your family close in this time of need!

[bayoulongbowman]

Bill, I pray for you and family members , may they have peace...Marco#78

[bear1336]

Prayers from Georgia.

In HIS service
Dave

[ber643]

God be with you all in your sorrow. I hate suicides it is such a final solution and yet leaves all the loved ones with no solutions. I pray that your Uncle is at least, and at last, at peace somehow.

[DMaster]

When one hurts we all hurt,
Father I pray that the family will seek you in this hour of need, that the hurt, grief and pain they feel will subside and they will see your good in all of this. Continue to bless them in this their hour of need, in Jesus we pray, Amen.

In God's Love and Service, peace.

[Shell]

Bill, We hope you and your family are doing better, that God is filling youir hearts with comfort. Shell&Frank

[Killdeer]

I have personal experience dealing with this kind of sorrow, and can tell you that your feelings will evolve, change as time passes and the various facets are considered. My heart goes out to you and your family as you continue to deal with the impact that such a desperate choice leaves on the ones left behind. My prayers for you all, and for your dear uncle. May God hold him close.

Killdeer