Bona,
You have been tested to the utmost a person can be tested. Man I can say there is no words that I can express to let you know how I feel for you. God bless you and your family. keep your chin up in these hard times. I know it must be hard my friend, but let you know. we are here for you anytime you may need. I think I can say for many here if you need to talk to anyone in a private conversation all you need do is ask. With a brothers love peace be with you.