Know that I'll be praying for you!!!!!! dealing with that myself a little of late, makes for a LONG day. Try to remember this: in times when it seems like it doesn't matter how you look at life, your looking at it,through a dirty window and the bottle of windex is empty, and so is the paper towel roll, "don't wrestle:just nestle", allow God to lift ya up and hold you, we will NEVER understand why we are going through what we are going through, and maybe we don't need to know, we just need to know the God will get His glory for it,and we will have an opportunity to build our faith. Hang in there bud, it maybe Friday now but Sunday is a coming!!!!!