dave i,m new to this site and didn't read of your situation until today.my wife had "pickels" 2 years ago, it's tough. i know without god we can't do anything. stay steadfast, and cling to him. just as there are valleys, there are mountains. his glory will show, and our faith will increase, his love endures, and you will again smile and know he never left your side. our love and prayers are with you...john