Good thing, Doug is that our God is an awesome God and can even handle us being mad at HIM!
Emotions are running wild for you right now... changes in meds can wreck havoc...there are so very many good medicines, don't give up trying!
Worst thing you can do is to start beating down on yourself for what you perceive as "your screw-ups". Often conflicts go deeper than what is being observed at the surface.
Keep one foot in front of the other. Even try different doctors to get a fresh view. I've seen that in itself do wonders for folks.
Deal with daily issues and let the conflicts heal themselves. Keep an open heart and an ear toward His "still small voice" and allow the healing to come from within.
Relationships aren't easy. Even one with our Father at times can be a challenge. They take time. Focus on healing your inner self and the other relationships that YOU can impact, will come with time! God will show you how when the time is right...
Keep the Son in your eyes!