Well, heres an Update.
Doin ok. had to leave a few gatherings of friends but i'm not gonna deal with it any longer so i leave when i see alcohol involved. most of my friends have been very understanding. other, well, i guess aren't worth my time.
its been and is everyday a struggle. i have been seeing an addition counselor but still haven't decided whether to seek more help. she does a good job at what she does. she has alot of little things that help me.
i have come to the realization that this is a life thing. ill deal with this struggle for life. i know people have told me this but i had to figure it out for myself. all of you that have given me your contact info, i will probably be giving ya a call for support. i got a long road ahead of me.
thanks for the continued support and prayer.
a brother in Christ,
-MM