There are others on here who have had their heart broken by someone they love. I have seen this played out many times in the line of work I am in. I hope God spares me this in my marriage because I don't think I could deal with it as well as you are. Just continue to reach out to others and to our Heavenly Father and He and us will see you through this. Just continue to recognize the one who wants to steal your joy. The bible tells in John 10:10 The thief (devil) does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they (YOU) may have life, and that they (YOU) may have it more abundantly. Still praying for you.......Dusty