I go through the same thing at times and I ask Dad to give me the right attitudes and motivation to do what's right. He is the Author and Finisher of our faith. That means to me that I go to Him to let Him sanctify me rather than trying to do it myself in my flesh. Amazing how my attitude and desires change. What you're feeling is unfortunately normal but that's why He died and rose for us so that it would be Him living in and through us. The good thing is that you are aware and care.
Romans 8:31-39. 31 What, then, shall we
say in response to these things? If God is for
us, who can be against us? 32 He who did not
spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how
will he not also, along with him, graciously give
us all things? 33 Who will bring any charge
against those whom God has chosen? It is God who
justifies. 34 Who then is the one who condemns?
No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that,
who was raised to life—is at the right hand of
God and is also interceding for us. 35 Who shall
separate us from the love of Christ? Shall
trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or
nakedness or danger or sword? 36 As it is written:
“For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”
37 No, in all these things we are more than
conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am
convinced that neither death nor life, neither
angels nor demons,[k] neither the present nor the
future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor
depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be
able to separate us from the love of God that is
in Christ Jesus our Lord.