I step out my back door and wander out to the back of my property, bow in hand and a heart full of joy and memories being fresh back from a hunt in another place where I made them, along with some new friends. The sun is starting to slowly set behind the majestic Mt. Baldy that is the backdrop view from my kitchen window. The clouds in the sky above have soaked in the suns fading magnificense and they exude a fiery amber red glow that lifts my spirit.
There is a light breeze wafting with the scent of desert sage that always makes me want to take a deeper breath! As I begin my descent down into the vast wash that the critters we so love to engage wits with inhabit, I pass the spot where my Grandmother's (my mentor and hero) ashes were spread overlooking the little canyon where the hawks fly free and the sun spends most of it's time shining down upon. I say a prayer and say "come on gramma....let's go for a walk".
With my spirit guide by my side and in my heart we drop into the canyon. The coyotes are starting to yip and cackle as if to say "welcome back Mark" I smile and say...."hey fellas...I missed ya". A lone redtail hawk screeches above me. Man it feels good to be alive and never do I feel more so than when I am in this type of setting. To be be able to live and breathe and walk with God's creatures....to be a part of the GREAT circle I humbly and respectfully savor my place in it.My spirit rises another notch.
I stop and gaze at the skies changing colors like so many here have done before me. The thought comes to my mind ..."I am walking in their footsteps"....I am taking a step back in time and walking forward into the future all at once...BUT time seems to stop! All that there ever was...all that ever will be....has culminated right here, right now in this single moment! Nothing else exists in this moment just me and the Lord above...and he isn't talking OR is HE!?
The emotion is a bit overwhelming at this moment. I take a knee as the tears start to flow and give thanks to my creator...I feel so small and insignificant...yet here I am! Here WE are!My forefathers and all of my primal brothers and sisters that have shared or will share this same moment with me past, present or future! The world in this moment, the whole "time continuum" all makes sense. There is only THIS moment and everything that was or will be exists in THIS moment as well.Yes, God has dealt me a good hand!
I stand up with my eyes closed and take another deep breath. I see clearer in this moment with my eyes closed than I could ever see with them open. I step forward with a renewed sense of who I am,...who I want to be and hope that I can carry the torch so to speak and do the right things when they are needed so that one day some other brother or sister of the bow ,long after I have passed...will take that same deep breath with their eyes closed and say......thank you Lord for allowing me to walk in these footsteps!
Thanks to any who read this for allowing me to be passionate. And thanks to all of you,.. my fellow TG brothers and sisters for sharing yourselves with me and being stellar examples of what we should all strive for as human beings! It's not what ya got, it's what ya give! Nowhere more so have I seen this in action than right here on TradGang.God Bless.
Mark