Been there, done that too. It's hard not to, even leaning on the Lord...devil jumps up like the boogeyman time to time.
Glad you could come here and ask. I know these folks and more like em kept me centered and shiny side up through 29 of the longest months of my life.
Not in our time, but the Lord's. Prayers for continued growth, peace and insight. Keep the Son in your eyes.