Wow... Shawn, first, thanks for allowing us to share in your grief. Next, May the Lord bless you and keep you both in His loving arms through this most difficult time. Lastly, try to use this to bring you both closer together and closer to Him. There is no mortal understanding to make sense of such things, or children dying of cancer, etc. Trust and live in Faith. Prayers for the HOly Spirit to fill you both to overflowing.