Great thing about our Awesome God is that there is boundless "2nd chances" with a repentetant heart.
There are way many addictions beyond alcohol and drugs...
I'm lucky to come here and realize that even in the worst of times, I'm blessed. We all have struggles.
David, you take care of you and there is no place for self-imposed guilt here. Sometimes it helps to reach outside our own troubles, but don't ever put yourself down for not being here.
That is where most of our problems start... putting ourselves down. Easy to do. Hard to recover from... nasty business this self doubt stuff.
Prayers for you to get back up on that wagon and find renewed strength and peace in our Lord.
We're here for YOU too!
Keep the Son in your eyes!