Joshua,
I echo Benson's words in that counseling and sometimes medicinal interventions are tools God makes available to straighten the path to Him.
Sounds like finding your soul mate has been a true Christ-mas gift for you. Blessings on you both. Isn't it grand when one can find a life partner that shows true Christ like love? A special praise to God for that balance point in your life along with the panic problems.
Prayers for your work in the CBA work and Thanks be to God for that mission work to reach others right here at home in grass-roots fashion.
May the new year continue to challenge and bless you in special ways, Joshua.
Keep the Son in your eyes, bro!