Mike,
I can offer prayers and you wouldn't be posting here if you didn't have a modicum of faith.
As for Guidance all I can share is that we're promised that we're never alone...
You've experienced a great deal of loss and death in recent months and I cannot imagine how awful that must feel!
All I can offer is to repeat that old saw that, "God never gives us more then he's willing to give us strength to handle"
We as humans often draw lines in the sand and 'That's as far as I am willing to go"... but that is OUR way, not His!
I'm not much of a scripture hound, but there are passages where we're promised that as we face trials, the Lord will walk with us...
I'm also reminded of "Footsteps in the Sand" where sometimes there were ONE set of footprints and sometimes two as Christ walked with the Author, but the speaker questioned Christ as to why, in his darkest moments the lord abandoned him... and JESUS replied, "my Son, I did not leave you--- there are only one set of prints for then is when I carried you"
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I always loved that ditty... perhaps it will have meaning to you....
Right now that is all I've got but I will continue to pray for you, your family and the losses you all have experienced...
Keep the SON in your eyes!