Sorry to hear about your loss. People say it gets easier with time, I am here to tell you thats not always the case. You see I lost my father on feb. 13,1999. I,like you,was there comforting him as he made his journey across the Jordan River,and all I can do now, to keep it in some type of perspective,is to allow the one whom holds my dad, to hold and comfort me. Read John 15 the father is talking about abiding in Him and He in us, the meaning is somewhat deeper than this theologically but just know when we abide in Him and He in us,there is a joy that passes all human understanding.May you find pease in the Great comforters arms,God Bless.