Saga Continues:
I moved all Sunday after church and got all boxed stuff out to storage.
Fed Ex never delivered on Sat... :( Landlords show up Sunday at 7pm..wanting to know if I'm going to be out today.
I present copy of lawyer's letter and landlady goes off...says he's stupid and they an evict me immediately on "uninhabitable" clause. I counter with "not without going to court and proving it's unihabitable." DEpt of Health I talked to said they can't say it is...dunno.
She storms out. Fred remains and we parlay. I make suggestions based on working together to resolve carpet issue, based on what they did next door ona smaller scale for grey water problem. (removed padding and shampooed carpet only in affected area).
She comes back in and says attorney on phone (Sunday night?) says to not talk to me and I'll be out this AM. He and I continue to talk.
Seems we MIGHT... MIGHT :eek: have agreed to him coming in Sat, now that my furniture in living/dining room is empty of stuff, move it to one end and rent a commercial shampooer and clean carpet best we can Saturday together...then when dry, move stuff back.
THey know I've rented storage and moved a good bit of stuff..LOTS to go..much work to do over next weeks between job search. (y'know us outdoors types are freakin packrats!?)
I offered if they want to remodel, to give me 60 day notice as in lease and if I get this job and/or can be out before that, I'd approach them to negotiate how we can resolve any rent owed back to me and a release from any petty "use" or "cleaning" issues since they want to "gut" the place and I could let them in earlier than 60 days.
Turns out they're thinking of selling...to get out from under this place...have some interested buyers...and it all comes clear. They wanted to use this carpet deal to get me out so they can remodel and list to sell with all units spiffy.
Thanks, Benson for not letting me sit here thinking I'm the only one who has strong faith in God, but still anguishes when in the midst of things like this that seem to threaten from every corner. I'm ashamed to admit but I do struggle mightily through this..contantly having to stop, rethink, stop going down wrong mental path and use a lot of energy to keep on believing what can't be seen.
I've read that a "praise sacrifice" isn't a sacrifice if it doesn't cost me something" so here goes:
"Lord, your love is unquestioned. I know you want what's best for me always. I know you have a plan for my next job, my future and to restore my life so that I may know joy and have learned from these past 2 years of unemployment, working part time, doing odd jobs, consulting, etc. Each time you came through just as I was about to fold and provide me just enough sustenance.
Lord, I praise you for all the good things that have happened. The way you've used the mistakes I make daily, in choices and behaviors with others, to help me grow. I love how you constantly confront me to grow and become more like you. Thank you for those times to teach me I am not in control and my best efforts mean nothing if they're not done in surrender to you.
Dear Jesus, I stand before you surrendered. I'm beaten down and tired. I know there is nothing my intellect, my sweat or my determination can do at this point to resolve these issues.
It's totally by you that I can survive. I look up to you with uplifted hands and beseach you to raise me from this place, to provide this job you know is on my heart and use it to restore my life. You know my heart wishes to give all the credit,ALL THE GLORY to you for all that YOU will provide me to be good and right.
Thank you, Jesus, for each of those who post here daily and those who silently pray for all of us in troubled times. Thank for for the many, many miracles that we've seen happen by your hand to those who come here and their loved ones, only through your majesty and Grace.
Thank you for putting up with me, this fallable, rusty ole vessle that can't get it right without you and the daily presence of your Counselor, the Holy SPirit.
Be with me and all here. Grant us our prayers that we might honor you and be restored to do your will and work.
Amen"