C2,
The worst thing you can do is to start fearing...natural to happen, bad juju to let go unchallenged.
Many times over 2.5 years, I found gigs I thought were perfect matches...didn't click with the interview team...felt defeated..felt it was MY fault...later found out there were things in that situation that would have been a living Hell for me personally.
God is never wrong. He just doesn't always say "yes" to our wants. Sometimes the best "gift" God gives us is "unanswered" prayers. Was a country song like that a few years back...
God has a plan..hard to imagine when the world is starting to collapse around you, but it's there and He wants for us to be happy and fullfilled to do HIS work.
I'm sorry to ramble. Just been where you are as have many here. Sometimes the fix takes a while.
Bruce Wilkinson wrote several books. One you might wish to read is "Dream Giver". Fun li'l book as are all Bruce's works. It is so spot on where you are right now. I encourage you to take a few hours and work through it praying, "LOrd, open the eyes of my heart!"
Keep the Son in your eyes. Tie a prayer knot in the end of that rope of yours and hang on!