I will never know what truly was behind his decision. Suicide has touched me too many times, it is a saddening, a weight laid upon my heart, and of course demands some time spent in introspection as I peruse my reasons to continue or not.
He was an honest man, and made a better string than most. I bought some, and was looking forward to placing an order, along with the string I won at the bunny hunt raffle...he donated to so many causes. This was a good man, with a good and giving heart.
The big question, the WHY, will always be between him and his Maker. But it makes me pause and think, and reassess, and be glad of the blessed bond between the Maker and the man, and know that all is in the hands of the wisest, and the blesser of us all.
Like the rest of us, I wish that I could have said something, done something, given him pause, just enough to have kept him with us. But there was another trail for him, and I cannot fathom the WHY. That is for the One Above.
I am so saddened.
Killdeer