Most here know the few trials and disappointments I've enjoyed. I had to smile reading C2's listings...I've managed to also have 2 jobs in the past 10 months... one went away with economics...the second I had for only 4 short weeks, never got to start, and was in the process of moving there after finding a place to live when the job was elminated before I started.
Amidst that, I managed to keep my current place, even though I'd given notice. The owner where I rented my new place returned my deposits fully! I've lost hundreds, not thousands as a result! I have a few weeks of unemployment left.
There are many things to focus on negative, but I'm trying to learn that walking in faith cannot be done if one focuses on the losses! Faith means believing in what can't be seen and trusting beyond imagination.
That is the hardest lesson I'm still learning... trusting while continuing to do what is humanly possible. A tightrope at times between being engaged fully and not starting to believe it's MY efforts that will create the changes needed... they're my JOB to do...but I have to totally rely on God.
I vascilate on that last one... and take on way too much responsibility for the 'outcomes' so that I crash and burn when those plans don't play out positively.
Like C2, I have made friends here I'll likely never meet...not just "associates" but true friends, too many to name. God fearing, God loving people who reach out at just the right time to keep me centered. I'm rich in that way alone!
God's also given me people I can reach out to and "pay it forward" time to time...using the lessons God's help me survive to help others find direction... How blessed is that!?!
While starting to show the signs of aging, I managed temporary health insurance for a catastrophy...just can't use it readily as that makes any treatment, "pre-exisiting". Still blessed to have something in the event of a major problem.
For the first time in my life, to quote a friend, I'm truly afraid for my country, but while things might falter, even fail in my lifetime, God is forever, unchanged and immortal and His will shall prevail.
I consider myself rich and blessed in many ways and am ashamed for the times where I bottom out and wallow in self pity and fear.
Working hard to keep the Son in my eyes!