Magnus lost twenty six years to a women, lost everything i ever owned, lost job, health went south, flood took cabin, truck broke down, lived on pop can money, ate cr_ p slept in a leaking 10 foot camper, no water, etc, and almost checked out. Brother things happen for a reason and the great spirit tests us. Hang tough and let go. survive and believe me you will find a pot of gold at the end of all of it. Ps ask for help lots of us been there....