I wanted to run away, reading this, but couldn't. I had to read every post.
My gut aches.
My heart breaks for you and your wife.
I'm so proud to be part of a hunting site that would show such an outpouring of love for their fellow man to reach out in this moment of horrid torment.
KNow that God can help you cope. He can take your anger, your rants and your tears. It won't be easy.
Hold on to your wife and bond through this. I've seen families ripped to shreds blaming one another. Don't let that happen Jeremy!
When at the end of your rope, tie a prayer knot and hold on.
We've got your back. May God's peace envelop you and comfort you and bring you peace.