Hi Andrew if you feel all the love for you that I've read in just these two pages I know for a fact that you have experienced the love of God because that is the ultimate source of each of those that are responding to you.
It is very simple and very real, God loves you without reservation. He loves you enough that He gives you the free will to decide how you want to live and love. He will not force Himself on you.
You undoubtedly an impressive young man with a sharp open mind and a tender heart.
Those are gifts directly from God and I thank Him for giving you those and for you as a whole.
If we men know how to show you love just think about how much greater you will know from Him personally how much He loves you if you reach out to Him.
People, even good people can and will fail you, sometimes intentionally but most of the time not intending to, but it will hurt all the same.
He will never let you down, He will never leave you or forsake you!
Don't just take my word for it, just talk with Him. He is there and would love to hear from you.
With the love of Christ Jesus,
God bless,Mudd