Charlie,
its time to embrace the dream and go step forth in faith! If He brought you to it HE will bring you thru it.
It's not where we live or what we do but HOW we live and How We do what we do.
Have faith brother. It's scary when it all finally comes together like that I'm sure.
I can understand, but perhaps it's just another step in the test of faith...to show you it's not YOU who will make it happen, but He who rules!
Keep the Son in your eyes and go forth with confidence...prayers for you and your bride...
Hows the pup?