Dave I understand your pain having lost my best friend and brother in 2010. He and I were the best of everything. We hunted together, both work for the fire dept and on the same shift so we could be off at the same times, etc. His passing was a great loss to my family and I.
Kirk Lavender was a true brother and friend during those times and his emails helped to focus on something other than the loss. Even know with every bow I build I think of my brother and the times we had. I was still angry and it was more frustration than anything but I blamed God, however thankfully His patience and mercy healed the constant ache and the frustration of it all and I pray the same for you as well, Dave. - shane