Between me and the bull was the tree I had chosen to lean against. Maybe 14 inches diameter it gave me just enough cover to not be left out in the open. The bull I could see by leaning one way or another allowing my vision to clear the tree trunk. He was right there, just forty yards and slightly below. It was a shot I could make if things were perfect. Perfect position (bull broadside), perfect stance (standing), perfect shooting lane (no lean out). But the bull, who had now stopped, was frontal. I was on my knees, a shot not yet mastered. And I needed to lean my body out to clear the tree. I just couldn't risk it. My own self-respect wouldn't allow it.
The bull bugled again, this time quietly. "C'mon!" My mind screamed it. "Walk on!! Walk on!!!" It was definitely not good for me he was where he was.
He turned his body slightly, sniffed the duff covering the ground and laid down.
Not good. Not good. He was facing me head on in his day bed. It was definitely not good for me.
I was trapped. Seconds. Minutes. Quarter hour. My knees started first, letting me know this would become unsustainable. I was aware that under the leaves it was wet. Moisture wicked into the wool of my pants. It was cold.
The bull, he was head up. Without any sign of recognition or alarm he was looking through me. As long as I remained rigid and motionless, I was part of the landscape. Move a muscle and I was toast. The bull started to relax. He even seemed ready to sleep but bugles everywhere kept him responding time to time. The back of my knees started next, the pressure of my crouch putting compression weight on the soft tissue there. Nothing tells you your age like a knee crouch.
Then it was my lower back, the job it had asking it to remain still and supportive new and unusual. A back is at its best as a flexing, modulating unit that is part of a larger modulating machine. A back was never meant to be motionless for long. Incredibly strong in motion, it was never meant to be a motionless beam.
I think it was my mind that gave out first though.
As soon as I allowed the thought I could move, just a little, to present itself into my consciousness, the rest of me fell like dominoes. I leaned out. I moved a leg, just a little. If I could get so the tree was not a factor maybe I could make a shot when he stood. The plan, such as it was ill-considered and impatient, was I would let him see me move when I was ready, then draw as he stood up, sending an arrow into his broadside as he turned and ran.
So far so good. I moved my other leg, bringing my body a little out from the tree. The bull saw the change, but could not define it. He now was not looking through me. He was looking at me. I froze. Time again became the enemy. My knee pain again eroding my resolve.
The bull turned his head. I moved a bit more, almost ready to stand. But I misjudged an undulates amazing peripheral vision. The bull was locked on now, alarmed, up and gone in the time it takes to read this sentence.