Tim, Someone needs to give you a knife Man!!!!!
Knives are very special. Years ago,a knife was themost important thing that a man owned. If a man gave you his knife,it was the greatest of honors!!!!! That man gave you his most important possesion,and it was considered Good Luck to be the reciever of a knife,and that knife was considered a Good Luck Charm. Almost every knife that I own has been given to me,and I have given many away over the years.
I guess what I'm getting at is..... Stop trying to find the perfect knife for you,and start carrying a good knife around.(hopefully one that someone gave you would be nice) See how quickly you become VERY attached to it!!!!!