Tim, i know how you feel brother i lost my Grandfather figure aboout 2 months ago. Its hard to let the most dearly loved go. Your buddy must be with Jesus, as he seemed to be with you the whole way. Keep your head up brother, it will get easier i promise. I will pray for you and your family as well as Big Freds. Its important to remember that even when things get rough, GOD is always in control. If you need anyone to talk to shoot me a pm, i dont know you but would be glad to talk to you. God Bless,
Dalton