Seems like always somethin'.....I used to be a concrete finisher. I used to hard work and in the heat. If I didn't work, I didn't get paid so I was used to keep going no matter how I felt.
Well back in '87 I started hurtin', a different type of hurt. When I'd say something about it to someone they'd just say something like "what do you expect, you're gettin' old". Well I could tell it wasn't normal but when talked to Docs they acted like I was just tryin' to get out of work. Finally I just couldn't stand it anymore and quit doin' concrete. That gave some relief but it wasn't till one of the Docs sent me to a Rheumatologist that I started gettin' some help.
The Rheumatologist ended up sayin' I had Rheumatard Arthritis. Then she found the Fybromyalgia, along with the Restless Leg Syndrome, then Neuropathy, and Degenerative Bone Disease in my spine. She used to say I had the "Trifecta of Joint Pain". Well with the meds I am able to cope with it all most of the time. When there's a weather change I'm in bad pain. If it's gonna rain, or a cold front goes through or whatever it affects me. Somedays I wake up and just can't stand it, but not that many choices.
I wear Fentanyl patches, synthetic morphine, and change them every 3 days. Plus I take pain pills too, just to try and take the "edge off" the pain when it gets alot worst. At first they didn't want me to take all the drugs I'm on cause I'd get hooked on them. Well they can't do anything to stop the pain, or the diseases so I said who cares, finally they agreed. I've been in pain most of the time since '87. That's 24 yrs. now and pain really wears your body down after a few years.
Between the pain, and the side effects from the drugs I end up doin' very little of anything. The patches I wear are heat activated, by that I mean the hotter I get, or the patch gets, the more morphine it kicks out. That helps on the pain, but before ya know it you're kinda buzzin'. Enough that I no longer can ride my motorcycle safely, or even just wear warm clothing that I can't take off or open my shirt up to cool my patch down. I'm like a old lady now and get these heat rushes which makes the patch kick in, which means the morphine will end up makin' me nod out for an hour or two. Like it or not.......Plus that morpine messes with me. like my memory, and just ramblin' on like I just noticed I'm doin'. Sorry for ramblin'. I'll quit. Things could be alot worst, except for the times the pain is so bad I'm ready to give up. Then I just take more drugs till they knock me out and try it all again when I wake up. It's hell, but what are the choices? Tomorrow I go in for more shots in my back for that nerve pain. It's just a vicous cycle. What's so depressing is that they don't even try to say they can cure any of it. They just say deal with it.....and here's more drugs.