I sit here at my computer between clients and I find myself slipping into what CK dubbed "the fourth world" I wonder which of the deer I have been watching for the past two weeks will present me the first shot opertunity. Will it be one of the two dry does? Will it be one of the five spikes in the area. Maybe I'll get a shot at the magnificant 3 pointer I have seen on rare occasions. I smile when I think of the young doe with the twin fawns still in spots. She's safe from me for this year, but I wonder if how close she'll walk by. I hope I get a chance to see the little ones play "tag" up close like I have seen through the binocs. Hey, maybe even the 4x5 I named Prince charming is still hiding out, though I haven't seen him at all since opening day last year. I know thier usual path, and my hide has produced in years past and feel confident it will again. I feel the excitement of the hunt as always, but it's mellowed by the gravity of knowing I will be taking life. I always do my best to honor the deer. I do so in several ways, one of which is to make my arrows beautiful and my broad heads razor sharp. I use all that i know how to from their body and always thank them for their sacrfice when I am succesful. I'll get to do my chores with the knife I made this winter for the first time. I have practiced a lot this year. Partly to learn to shoot a long bow, partly to help me through the divorce. Much has changed for me this past year, and more are yet to come. I wonder, could this be the last year I get to hunt this piece of land? It's very much a possability. If so, will the deer remember me two years from now? how about five? I know I'll remember them forever.