This thread is just a really great read, especially since I'm a big fan of Hill bows and old school ways. I have both of John's books but I've learned things about him that might never have been learned anywhere else...thanks to Gene and others here who have actually passed quality time with him.
I find his poem to be very interesting, especially the following verses:
"To go again when children- not yet grown
Were in their joy and play
Then all of life was only "home"
But now- they're gone away-
To go again? It cannot be
Except it is in memory
So then- I'll only look ahead
Not live the past- long dead-"
As enjoyable as it was for John to have lived through so many good times, it may be equally as painful for him to relive them now. What a grand old world that must have been for him! Can any of us say that we would not give everything we own to go back in time and spend even just a few precious moments with our beautiful wife and children and healthy friends, back when we were the happiest? But, can anyone deny that as wonderful as such times were, recalling them might also be too painful to endure in the quiet life of old age and a house empty of those loved ones?
John is getting old and dusk is approaching. Perhaps he'd rather not be reminded of cherished things that once were but are no more. Maybe it just hurts too much for him to dwell on it, and so he chooses to allow the past to stay the past. Who are we to demand anything else? Maybe letting him relax and respecting how HE wants to finish his days, is really the best way to honor him. Great men deserve no less.
Sometimes silence is golden. God bless John Schulz...for the man he was, the man he is and for what he means to us all.