The Dr. is in.....
I started hunting with an old 50# Bear Alaskan, Back in 1976. Killed a doe in '76 and another in '77 Both years, I was done hunting by the time the 1st weekend had ended. Then, I started to get more picky, Holding out for a buck. Bought a compound in 1981, Had a few of them... Sold my last one about 1984, when I "gave up" bowhunting!!! (The compound bows, just didn't "do it" for me) Bought a used Kodiak Magnum and a dozen wood arrows in 1996. It was like 1976 all over again!!!!!
The Dr.s prescription is.....
Give up bowhunting!!!!! It is bad for you, and is driveing you insane!!! Sell your compound and take up fishing..... After about a month, when your soul is cleansed and your mind is clear, you will be able to see that the traditional path, is the right one for you!!!!!
(Take the money that you squirreled away from selling your compound, and go buy a stickbow!!! You'll still have a couple months before hunting season!!!!!)
I will Dance for you, and send smoke to the Great Spirit, asking him to open your eyes and cleanse your spirit. Only then, can the transformation be complete.....
Good Luck on your Quest, My Brother!!!!!