Ben my far off northern brother... Or should this one who deals death to water buff whilst removing himself from the clutches of target panic......be called "Benny Nirto" !?
Firstly mate, bloody well done! Finally eh! There is no greater feeling then doing what you have done on your own terms and limitations... A true test to your character.
I too have walked those same lonely roads and have felt the same dull pain of trudging through life with no real purpose... I think they simply call it existing.
Now... It seems life has come full circle again for you mate. You can see it in your face and this hunt and time away with the new lady will be something you will hold onto for decades to come as it's important to die old with good memories.
Welcome back Ben... As always stated and offered, mine is yours.
Cheers,
ak.